He is changing.

It is hard for me to believe Connor will be three months old tomorrow.  Time needs to slow down just a touch!  I went back to work last Monday.  Boo!!!  But, I couldn't be more blessed with my Mom keeping him each day.  They are both enjoying their time together during the day.  But, oh, how I miss him.

Connor, you are my dreams come true.  You are more precious to me than the air I breathe. 

You are growing  fast!  I love watching each day unfold with something new you discover in your world.  Just yesterday, you discovered you can touch your cheek and eye with your hand.  You enjoy your bottle about every three hours.  It took us a bit to get your formula right, but we got lucky after two tries.  En famil seemed to give you acid reflux, so we switched to Sim ilac.  And you've had no problems on it.  Sometimes we would give you a dose of gripe water to help you relax if you seemed to have alittle reflux, and it worked wonders!  Sometimes figuring out was is wrong is a challenge for your Mommy.  Thank you for always being patient with me.

You weighed 12.5 pounds at your last check-up.  You had your two month shots and were a trooper!  You didn't cry much or run fever afterwards.  Last night was the second night in a row that you've slept through the night from 10 - 5.  We had some pretty long nights together during your first two and a half months.  I think you were afraid of missing something.  Sleep was actually quite rare around here.  Mommy tried to nap when you did, but you didn't nap a whole lot.  Some mornings, you were as exhausted as Mommy, but we still enjoyed our day together!  And those slumber party all-nighters we shared together were really okay.  They meant more time with you.  Your Granna would help me some mornings.  She would come pick you up early so Mommy could get just a couple of hours of sleep.  That really helped a lot.  We love her so much!  I was home with you for the first 12 weeks of your sweet life.  Those weeks were the best weeks of my life. 

Beginning when you were about two months old, we started adding a small amount of rice cereal to your night-time bottle.  Your doctor recommended we try it to see if you would sleep longer at night.  We didn't notice much of a difference, but you really enjoy your nightly bottle of cereal, so we have continued it each night. 

You really get a kick out of your mobiles, both at home and at Granna's.  You also are attracted to any type of emblem or pattern on clothes.  You favorite thing in the world is to be held and rocked.  You've never cared much for a pacifier, but there are times when you want to relax and enjoy it.  When you get upset, a pacifier is the last thing you want.  You do not enjoy your car seat.  I think it's because you get tired of it and don't understand why no one will pick you up out of it.  It breaks my heart for you to get so upset.  There is no consoling you when you get angry in the car. Your head gets wet with sweat, and your clothes get damp with one of your fits.  I can tell your feelings are hurt when I am finally able to get you out of it.  I hope you grow to enjoy your car seat soon, as it will be a part of your life for awhile.

Your hair is strawberry blond (more red in some light,) and you have blue eyes.  You move your hands a lot and have since the day you were born.  The bright light outside hurts your eyes, but I've noticed you are getting used to it.  You are starting to enjoy being outside.  You are noticing things and trying to reach for things that interest you.  You like your changing table and do alot of smiling there!

You're holding your head up on your own now, so we will be trying you on food soon! 

Love you to the moon and back!
Mommy

Connor Morgan

Even though it seems I've completely abandoned my blog, I wanted to drop by to introduce someone!

Connor was born via c-section February 9 at 36 weeks. He weighed 8 pounds 1 ounce and was 19 3/4 inches long. He is perfect in every way.

This journey was worth every mile. I'm completely in love with him.

17 Weeks

Hello, dear bloggie friends!

I don't know where the time goes. It's been so long since I posted. All is well with us. I am 17 weeks along and starting to feel normal again. The morning sickness has finally subsided (I think.) I still get ill if I eat too much, and there are times when I get sick at my stomach for no reason at all. But, it's so nice to not be sick day in and out.

So far, I'm pleased with both of my doctors. I'm seeing both of them every four weeks. Both are concerned with my blood pressure, so I'm taking my BP meds twice a day now instead of only once. My 17 week appointment was this past Thursday, and my BP was perfect. Hopefully, it will stay that way! Because our little one's legs were bent upward and its feet were crossed, we still don't know if our baby is a boy or girl. Bummer. But, what a sweet face we saw.

We ordered our baby furniture a couple of weeks ago from B.abies R Us. Surprisingly, I chose the set quickly! It's in, so we'll be going to pick it up next weekend. I plan to post pictures soon!

No weird cravings. No appetite at all really. And when I eat, I can't eat much. I am enjoying real Coca-Cola (and I'm trying to limit myself to only one per day) and salty things, especially chips. My gag reflex is on at all times, especially when I cough, sneeze, take my inhaler, or brush my teeth. Garlic smells are unpleasant, and the smell of the Cascade dishwasher soap I use is revolting. It doesn't even smell like soap anymore! That isn't so bad....just means K has to be in charge of the dishes. I've noticed acid reflux is worse if I let myself go too long without eating, so I try to eat small meals.

This pregnancy is going by so fast. I'm trying to enjoy every moment.

Water is the answer!

I've been getting so much advice since becoming pregnant. Some of it has been welcomed....some of it has been uninvited. I work in a large office building, and word travels fast. And, I am one of about ten women there who is expecting a little one. I find it amazing at what some people say! And with each comment and with each day of hormonal surging, I'm finding it difficult to control my response. I've also noticed how women's eyes automatically travel to my mid-section now.

If you are experiencing nausea, I may have the cure that will work for you. Here is a brief list of suggestions I've been given.

Crackers

Sprite

Sierra Mist

Peppermint

Ginger Candy

some kind of lollipop

lemon drops

Jolly Ranchers

Cheerios

Ginger Ale

Fruit Loops

Top FOUR Comments I'm not quite sure how to respond to:

"Are you excited?!?" (((Excited, yes! But, I'm also nervous and scared and anxious. And nauseated. Maybe one day soon, "excited" will be the very first emotion that comes to mind when it comes to my pregnancy. I will be VERY EXCITED when my baby arrives safe and sound.)))

"Glad it's you and not me!" ((( this coming from someone who has no idea who she is talking to and apparently hasn't used her nosey-ness enough to find out from someone else that I actually went through IVF and got pregnant ON PURPOSE. I thought about sharing, but she was too busy talking about how her three year old poops in her pants while watching TV instead of leaving the room and going to the potty. Sorry, no pity here. And no, unlike you who can't wait to be rid of your daughter for a weekend, it will be a long time before I'm ready for some "me time." I've had enough "me time" for awhile. Thanks.)))

"There is SOMETHING in the water!" ((( seriously??? I wish I would've known! Maybe that was my problem all along.....maybe I wasn't drinking enough of the stuff. )))

AND LAST BUT CERTAINLY NOT LEAST....

"You just wait." (((Hmmmm....OK. I'm used to waiting. And how about YOU WAIT....while I punch you in the......never mind.)))

9 Weeks

We had a checkup Thursday, and I was exactly 9 weeks. We were able to get some great pictures of our sweet little fortune cookie!

We found out that because I am 35, I'll be followed by a high risk doctor in addition to my regular OB-GYN.

Heartbeat: 177

Measuring 9 weeks, 1 day

How am I feeling: Tired! I give out easily, and my house shows it. Yesterday afternoon marked my second terrible headache since becoming pregnant. These headaches wipe me out, and there is no relief from them except sleeping it off. The acid-reflux comes and goes. Nausea presents itself daily, but I think it might be tapering off. I want to be hungry!!!

Food cravings/aversions: Really loving Cherry Lime Icees and baked potatoes. When it comes to most food, in general, nothing sounds good. I have to make myself eat.

Sleep: I'm sleeping well! And alot!

Weight gain: None yet! But my waistline tells a different story. I've welcomed maternity pants into my world, and I love wearing them to work since I have to sit most of the day.

Eww! Blehhk! I don't feel so good....

Happy weekend!

Last week was a super week. We made our last long trek to Dallas to SIRM. We graduated! Dr. S. was as excited as we were. He gave us a letter and a copy of our chart for us to give my OB-GYN. I've decided to stick with Dr. R in Shreveport as my OB-GYN. I really like her! She is just so caring, and I trust her. Even though I have my doubts about having an OB-GYN that is two hours away when it comes to delivering, I'm sure we can make it work.

Nausea has reared its ugly head in my world this week! The first few mornings, it came on just as I first got up in the mornings. By the time I was driving to work, the nausea had turned to hunger. Yesterday was different. The nausea stayed and stayed and stayed. All day. There were moments during the day I was nauseated AND hungry! How that happens, I don't know. I ate small meals throughout the day, and it seemed once I would eat, I'd feel alittle better. Today, I haven't been nauseated at all. The acid reflux isn't nearly as bad as it has been. I get tired and winded easily, so I take lots of breaks and alot of naps. I want to start walking, but it's so hot outside! I really need to get some exercise.

All of my pants are tight, but I know it's too early to start wearing maternity pants. I've got a few things picked out online, but I haven't ordered yet. I'm having a hard time finding cute maternity things.

6 Weeks!

Hello friends!

Thursday was a big day for me! Not only was it my six week mark, but I had my first ultrasound. We were able to see our precious little jelly bean! One perfect baby! We were even able to hear the heartbeat. Mom and K were both there, and we shed lots of happy tears. I couldn't take my eyes off of the ultrasound screen. It was by far the best day of my life, and I am so grateful to the Lord for bringing me here. I never thought this would happen to me, and I'm doing my best to savor each and every moment. It's hard sometimes, and fear so easily slips in. I know that our struggle has tainted me to a point. That fact makes me angry. I know the next coming months that are normally joyous and exciting for most pregnant women will be largely consumed with fret and worry for me. I'm being pro-active against this fret and worry though, and I'm determined to not allow it to take over and rob me. As an act of faith, I made my pregnancy public on Facebook this week. It was a blessing to have so many encouraging comments! Just knowing that we've had so many people praying for us and this miracle makes my heart full.

This week will be another milestone week. We're going to Dallas this Wednesday for our second ultrasound to make sure our sweet jelly bean is growing, growing, growing! I can't wait to hear that heartbeat again. And it will be nice to see everyone at the clinic. I miss them!